Two weeks..

Two weeks to go.. I can't study anymore. I'm not kidding. Knowing that in three weeks I will have a college degree and no job is killing me.

I'm in this mess because I'm so damn picky and won't move anywhere I get a job.. All of my graduating friends have job offers in Dallas, Minneapolis, etc. I could have a job now but I don't want to live in any of those places, I want to live in California.

If one more person asks "Why San Francisco?" I'm going to slap them! I'm so tired of hearing.. "It's so expensive there" and "There aren't a lot of straight men there" (typical southern male idiot speaking)

a) IT'S MY LIFE
b) Life is too short not to take risks
c) Why not San Francisco?

I know it's expensive and far away from "home".. but I think it will be home. Home is a state of mind not a location.

Now I just have to find a job or go out on a HUGE limb and move there with no job. I'm so tired of waiting tables, but if I have to for a few months while looking for a job I guess I have to.

That my friend is determination. I want something so bad that I'm going to extreme lengths to get it.

Parents don't have money to pay for college? get loans and work your butt off and pay for it yourself. People are too lazy these days. If you want something bad enough you will work to get it. I'm not one of those people who like academia.. I hate school... absolutely hate it. and guess what.. I'm finally done with it!!!

"Don't tell me the sky is the limit when there are footsteps on the moon"

Set fire to the third bar

Yesterday was my birthday. It was OK. Twenty four is not at all exciting. It was kinda disappointing because a few people I really wanted to see made too brief of an appearance, and some made no appearance. Oh well.. I won't know many of these people in a year so I guess it won't matter.

This is the way I decide how important people are in my life:

1) Will I actively talk to this person a year from now when I'm in California? if answer is yes (to question two

2) Will they keep their friendship with me for self-benefitting reasons (aka to have a cheap place to stay in Cali)? if so they aren't a true friend.. if answer is no then they may in fact be a real friend

A year from now I have absolutely no clue where I will be or who I will be with. That's so scary yet so exciting. There are a few people in my life whom I wish I could bottle up and take to California.

I find the map and draw a straight line Over rivers, farms, and state lines The distance from here to where you'd be It's only finger-lengths that I see I touch the place where I'd find your face

At last.. my love has come along

I finally found my "place".. or at least I hope so! I just got back from the San Francisco Bay Area and I loved it! Unlike the imbeciles in the South, the people in Cali are very relaxed and liberal. People here are afraid of people who aren't like them. They are very accepting and diverse. You could walk into a store with purple hair and green skin and no one would mind. I don't have a problem with conservatives, I have a problem with ignorance. People cannot help the way they are born, but they can choose their attitude. Not everyone is given everything on a platter, myself included, and we must work hard for everything. This gives you an advantage in life, because you know what's it like to have to work hard. Why not help these people instead of ridiculing them?

OK, so before I got off into a tangent I was declaring my love for California. The San Francisco Bay area in general was wonderful. Within one area you have:
1) The Beach! (I'm going to learn to surf!)
2) Mountains! (I went hiking :))
3) San Francisco- amazing diverse city complete with uppity areas as well as chill hippy spots :)
4) NAPA and Sonoma (amazing!)
5) Lake Tahoe for skiing
6) Silicon Valley= high tech jobs
7) Alot of startup companies based out of area= fun JOBS
8)Can drive down to LA-- takes about 6 hrs if I'm not mistaken
9) Cheap flights to Vegas :)
10 Carmel and Monterrey (Simply gorgeous) Now I understand why Steinbeck loved the area so much

Problems:

1) I don't have a degree from Stanford/USC/Berkeley while makes finding a job difficult
2) Costs of living very very high (and I'm just a poor college kid!)
3) I don't know anyone there.. As I'm finding out you basically have to know someone to get into PR/Advertising... I have sent out probably 20 resumes and have heard nothing
4) MONEY


If I want something bad enough I will work to get it. I don't have a very impressive resume.. I'm aware of this. I have little experience in PR and Advertising.. but I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT! I look forward to going to my Promotions class and sit in the front row.. If only I put this much passion into everything I do.

All I need is for someone to give the cute little Southern girl a chance.. I'm not from Stanford, I don't have a 4.0 but I have a personality and know how to sell myself damn it! (apparently not on paper...)